Thursday, September 17, 2020

Christopher - Entry 7 - Vindication!

I got some rest, and am ready to write again, without having too much in my head. 

After we spoke to the Rakshasa tiger man, I wanted to be alone. I summoned my tiny hut and hugged Aiko really tight until Dove, Greg and Lulu came in to talk to me. It was difficult for me to explain what I was feeling, but even so, everyone said some things that helped. Greg said that maybe sacrificing myseld would break my pact with Hermes, because I broke my promise to try to help people. Dove said that for every bad thing she does, she thinks of all the good things she could do later. 

I still don't know what would have been the right thing to do, but I know I can turn to Hermes, and to my friends, because they're always the right choice. 

After a while, Dove said she wanted to sell a barrel of wine, which is when I had an idea. this place tricked us, how about we trick THEM! So I asked Bowie to help us trick someone into buying the wine for too much money.

We went to the place where...  well... where I almost went to get sold. It was really difficult for me to be there, but I looked around and found someone who looked rich and showed him to Bowie. He had purple hair with bells which was pretty cool, but I still couldn't handle being there. Thankfully, Lazuli (who came with us) was very supportive. I know he doesn't think highly of himself, but I'm sure he's a good one.

The purple guy called himself the Smiler, and was really weird. He seemed obsessed with Bowie, and I think he was flirting with him. (My older cousin Eric told me about that a while ago). I don't know how, but that seemed to work, he agreed to try the wine and test it before buying it! 

But then he did something I was not expecting at all. He said that in exchange for a gift, Bowie should spend the evening with him. I hope they have fun, but that's not the point. He agreed to buy one of the slaves for us! Of course, we never told him that we would free him, but bought us a Firbolg who was still alive and who I'm sure is innocent. He can't remember anything for now (I think he also got affected by the river Styx like Lulu), so we're taking him with us to a place he can be free, and calling him Sven. He seems nice. 

The best part is, the Smiler - I think - used the money of the Rakshasa to pay! It was 7 soul coins, so about 45,000 gold! I hope he didn't buy Bowie, that would be weird... 


 

Thursday, September 10, 2020

Christopher - Entry 6 - (No Title Specified)

 I should have done it I should have done it I should have done it
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Should I have done it? 

The tiger man we met, he was too colorful for the kind of soul he has. How can he show so much cheer when he sells people for a living? When he offers food in exchange for a person? 

In exchange for someone like me. Someone small... 

He said small ones sell really well, and wanted to buy me, to sell me to all kinds of demons. He didn't say the food was expensive... he didn't even mention a price. 

The only thing that told me that I shouldn't trust him, was the fact that he asked if I was for sale right when we met. 

I should have done it

When he asked for our payment for the food, he automatically said he would take me in exchange. I thought that, well, maybe he would just be ok with knowing that he... corrupted me. I never killed anything. I thought that, if I killed something for him, maybe got in his indirect service, maybe that would be ok. 

But when I told him I never killed anything, he told me I was worth 10 times as much. 

He agreed he would free 10 people he was trying to sell...

I should have done it

Shut up, Aiko, I don't want to write anymore

... Fine... I'll finish

I tried offering my services in exchange of freeing the 10 people he promised to free. I really tried. But my friends wouldn't let me. I know they are trying to protect me, but those other people had no one to protect them. 

I had my chance to protect TEN people. I'm just one gnome. People can't even tell me apart from a halfling. I promised I'd help people and now... 

Now I feel like I'm the one who sent 5 of those people, who were still alive and not just souls resting in hell...

Well...

I feel like I sent them to their deaths. 

I SHOULD HAVE DONE IT

Why does it even matter if I do my best to help people, if when I try it doesn't work? Or if others don't allow me to? Why do any of the promises I keep matter? 

Bowie, I think it was, told me that me not being able to handle not helping these people is selfish. So what would be the selfless solution? Is there such thing? 

I should have done it. I appreciate that another solution was found, but knowing I could have helped ten... 

Maybe? No. 

I mean

Maybe I'll find another way to help them, anyway. 

 

 



Christopher - Entry 7 - Vindication!

I got some rest, and am ready to write again, without having too much in my head.  After we spoke to the Rakshasa tiger man, I wanted to be ...